I have been missing everyone here at the blog and being able to visit others. Well first let me say thank you to all of you who have sent regards and inspiration to me over the last five months of my separation from my husband.
I am grateful for the strength I've been able to muster, to let go and try to move on with my life, which is still not easy by any stretch of the imagination. It's not that I don't care, it's that I can't let myself care anymore.
I have had enough, enough pain, enough hurt, enough lies and enough deception. ENOUGH! I must let go now, let go of my love for him, my dreams with him and my memories of him - in order that I might begin to live again, trust again and someday love again. Sounds harsh, doesn't it, but its my reality. I have thought about taking him back many times, and not letting 15 yrs of marriage go down the drain. But I love him more to give him his freedom and wish him well.
Life is too precious to live in bitterness and revenge and that will take time for me to work through with counselling. I want to be a better person...STRONG, RESILIENT and LOVING person. I want my daughter to grow up a strong woman who doesn't live with low self esteem or insecurity. Also for my son to understand that cheating, lies and deceit is no way to love someone.
Take care and I promise a less heavier post next time folks, I had a lot on my heart. Cheers and have a great week ahead.